Idle minds are breeding grounds for misery. It’s best not to overthink this. Life is for the most part blunt and straightforward.
Sometimes we’re searching for meaning that just isn’t there. We start to attribute things that are irrelevant memory fails and the subconscious fills the holes.
Other times the subtext is all there reeking of metaphor and we catch some insubstantial piece. We lock onto some negative detail, we gas it up, we let it become a bonfire in our subconscious.
The reality is I always did what I could. Bad things happened, and even if I could of done something different, it’s too late to change the past.
So now I find myself sometimes trying to recollect and make peace with the past. There isn’t any beds left to make. We’ve been sleeping in them a long time.
Now if I start to trail off down memory lane I try and apply myself to the dozens of projects I’m neglecting.
Don’t let your thoughts betray you. When you know something is wrong don’t linger on it. The mind will start to make it true.
Plow the energy into something. Whether it be creative, practical, or controlled destruction. This energy is mine to control or I’ll be controlled by it.
Life after door kicking. 