Author: lifeafterdoorkicking
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Everything is falling apart
The most solid thing I had in this world is gone. With it everything else is shaking beneath my feet as well. The thing I had turned all my focus on, that I had dedicated all my attention to is now crumbling before my eyes. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know who…
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32 year old?
16 year old miscreant. 17 year old rifleman. 18 year old assistant gunner. 19 year old combat veteran. 20 year old sham artist. 21 year old combat leader. 22 year old lifer. 23 year old victim. 24 year old rehabilatator. 25 year old broke dick. 26 year old full time Dad. 27 year old expatriate.…
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Weening
I have what you could call an addictive personality. Whatever it is I can take it to excess. Gaming, gambling, smoking, drinking, sex; if it’s an indulgence I can over do it. Not sure if it’s a nature or nurture thing, but it’s my battle. Balancing indulgence without developing dependence. I have a beast that…
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This Echo Chamber
It’s coming up on a year since my accident. A few years now that I have been having issues with driving. So basically I spend a lot more time at home and alone than I use to. Part of the way I pass time is YouTube. It’s been quite a few years I stopped using…
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Light on the work tight in the shield.
I think I’ve done it. I may have retreated so far within myself I’ve turned inside out and am unravelling. Plateaued has probably been my status these last few months. I’ve been noncommittally excercising. Trying to rebuild my muscles waiting for muscle memory to reinforce the motion my nerves are fighting against. I’ll say it’s…
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Tips On How To Smile.
“Dad doesnt ever smile laugh or play with me.” “My oldest son around 7 years old” “Living with someone with PTSD you never see them smile.” “My wife” I’ve felt like this so long, I can’t really remember feeling any other way. A huge portion of my life I’m on autopilot. Maybe it’s the training.…
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Now what?
Since I got out the army my family has noticed I’m fairly good at maintaining my situational awareness. When I go places I pay attention for exits, I evaluate the threat capacity of all my fellow patrons, and I sit with my back to the wall so I have best field of vision. Doing so…
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The sun hasn’t set.
Just wanted to put a little note out. Let people know I’m doing well. My recovery from my recent accident has been amazing. For those of you who were unaware, I recently mangled the 3 vertebrae at the top of my back. I underwent a spinal fusion. After a few weeks I went from the…
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Levels
Levels is a new online fashion store catering to a culture that has grown from the inner cities to dominate fashion all over the world. Full disclosure I’ve known one of the owners of levels613 for several years. We have discussed some shared business ideas but never actually pursued anything together. They recently ran a…
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Stay busy my friends.
Idle minds are breeding grounds for misery. It’s best not to overthink this. Life is for the most part blunt and straightforward. Sometimes we’re searching for meaning that just isn’t there. We start to attribute things that are irrelevant memory fails and the subconscious fills the holes. Other times the subtext is all there reeking…
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Life after door kicking. 